|About the Book|
In 1999, I met a man who I thought was a Knight in White Shining Armor. Little did I know at the time, but he was the Devil in disguise. At the time that I met him, I had a very active social life and many outstanding friends. Not long after meetingMoreIn 1999, I met a man who I thought was a Knight in White Shining Armor. Little did I know at the time, but he was the Devil in disguise. At the time that I met him, I had a very active social life and many outstanding friends. Not long after meeting him, my life vanished into thin air. I became someone else for over 5 years. I lived in a surreal living horror which I thought I would never escape from. For many years now, I have had nightmares after what I experienced from my relationship with this man. I still find myself locking myself away from social situations and seldom ever leaving my house out of fear of the threats that my abuser still, to this day makes from time to time. Today, I am simply thankful to God and to the friends that I had during the worst of times who helped me to gain the strength to escape from him and the insanity and brutality that came with him. I fear for all people who find themselves in an abusive relationship, and I hope that just as I was finally able to, that they too are able to get out and escape. Abusers don’t change no matter how hard we pray they will. No matter how many times we beg them or tell them we love them. The only change they will do is to get worse. It hasn’t been easy for me to write about the things I went through, and there are literally thousands of things which I didn’t write about that were more severe and brutal than the ones I mention in this short book. Those things I still have difficulty speaking about even in my own mind. What you’re about to read is a true account of how I was abused by a man whom I once considered a beautiful and kind soul. Beauty and kindness though can change in the blink of an eye, and often with no outward warnings. It is up to us, the survivors, to try to educate others and do all that we can to help them when they find themselves in an abusive relationship. No one should ever have to go through what I went through, and I hope that after reading this, you will see that sometimes, victims of abuse feel trapped and often find it hard to get help with getting away from their abusers. It’s always easy to say things like “If that were me I would do this or that” but to be living in a nightmare is completely different than viewing one from the outside. One can never know how they would react when having to face pure evil. For survivors of domestic violence I will warn you that many things in this story could possibly be triggers for anxiety and depression, so please read with caution. I don’t want my life story to upset you. For others who have never witnessed or been affected by abuse, some of the things may shock you to even have to know that people really do go through these things. There are many who have been through far worse than I have. Many have lost their lives through domestic violence. I suffer from PTSD and Agoraphobia and severe anxiety from the years that I was with this man. I am lucky to be alive and am blessed to be a survivor.